Muted Reactions

I am disturbed by what i see Wondering why it should so be That the scene in front of me Isn't but a scene though i make it out to be Why don't i just see and not react Not as a stoic but as a deliberate act Cause knee jerk reactions could fit me in Though the damage cannot be reined in What is lost cannot be regained But isn't it stupidity to lose more In the hope of regaining the lost and losing more Yet swinging between the choices of should i or should i not Both being heavily weighed against the thought I would be a loser either ways So muted reactions may help me save the day For a life tomorrow in a renewed faith With the past forgotten and yesterday no more I plan to deal it this way and not in any other way To conquer the fears of failure and betray I know that it will pass and a new dawn come Maybe give me a chance to undo all said and done I need to control my emotions and temper As without them i am a victim more Of my temper than of the circumstance i wish to ride and be in control.